Saturday, April 29, 2006

Very nice Thank You Email I got

Subject: thank you for the donation
Date: Sat, 29 Apr 2006 14:06:53 -0400
From: "Reese Butler"
To:

Dear Courtney,

Thank you very much for your donation to the Kristin Brooks Hope Center, program manager of the National Hopeline Network 1-800-SUICIDE (784-2433). Your donation was a timely gift that will help us connect 60 people to help and hope.

The outpouring from Postsecret readers was unbelievable. We exceeded the $1k goal in a few hours after Frank posted the plea on his website. In the last week we have raised over 30 thousand dollars! This allowed us to not only exit our contract with our old phone company as we were hoping to but to switch to the new one which will connect TWICE as many people to certified crisis line workers, with LESS wait time, NO call drops, NO echo on the line and many other improvements. The new phone company handles calls for American Red Cross 1-800-HELPNOW, and it's the most reliable company in this field of service. We owe 100% of this transition to Frank Warren and the readers of Postsecret.

In addition to you over 900 people responded with support.

1-800-SUICIDE is now safe for another month. The reality is we still need more support, so please help us spread the word. We lost all our federal support 14 months ago and due to ethical reasons we have only the public to reach out to for support. We have no paid staff and 100% of the donations go for our telephone bill. We receive 1,000-2,000 calls from people in crisis EVERY DAY, and the only thing that keeps us being able to answer those calls is the support of people like you.

It is a miracle we are surviving but it is a testament to the human spirit, and, I believe that as long as we are doing this work people will support it.

If you would like more info on our organization, our history and our plans for the future I will be happy to forward them to you.

We are a 501(c)(3) corporation; therefore, your contribution is fully tax deductible. For tax purposes, our corporation number is 68-0342550.

We appreciate your support of our organization! Every dollar and the personal notes about why each person donates is appreciated and very important.

Thank you again for your support of our work.

Best always,

H. Reese Butler II
President and Founder
Kristin Brooks Hope Center
National Hopeline Network 1-800-SUICIDE
PO Box 151293

Alexandria, VA 22315-1293


703-924-6167

202-669-8500 cell
703-684-7438 fax
reese@hopeline.com

Ask me about our programs:
1-877-YOUTHLINE www.youthline.us
1-877-SUICIDA www.suicida.org
1-800-PPD-MOMS www.1800ppdmoms.org

Ouch

Very nice Metal Work

Don't think she wants you to go there.....

Barbarian Elf


I love this concept :)

www.hopeline.com


Call 1(800)SUICIDE [1-800-784-2433] for help, day or night.

From
  • PostSecret
  • {Which is well worth checking out!}

    4/17/2006
    "Miracle"

    ----Original Message-----
    From: Reese Butler [mailto:reese@hopeline.com]
    Sent: Tuesday, April 25, 2006 9:48 AM
    To: frank@docdel.com
    Subject: Thanks to All!

    Dear Frank,

    Ten days ago, when you shared my message on the PostSecret Blog that the HopeLine needed urgent help, the most amazing thing happened - over 600 people responded with donations totaling over $30,000.00!

    At our darkest hour, days from filing for bankruptcy, all of you saved us. We appreciate all your support; every dollar, every personal note, every thought and prayer are important to us.

    This is a miracle.

    Warm regards,
    Reese Butler,
    reese@hopeline.com
    Founder, Kristin Brooks Hope Center

    Obviously these folks need continued support. Give a little or a lot if you can.

  • Free Ebook about Suicide
  • Suicide the Forever Decision, For Those Thinking About Suicide and for Those Who Know, Love and Counsel Them, by Paul G. Quinnett, Ph.D.

    And finally:
    a few DANGER SIGNS OF SUICIDE:

    Talk about suicide
    Statements about hopelessness, helplessness or worthlessness
    Preoccupation with death
    Suddenly happier, calmer
    Loss of interest in things one cares about
    Unusual visiting or calling people one cares about
    Making arrangements; setting one’s affairs in order
    Giving things away

    Friday, April 28, 2006

    Wow!

    I know it's late but this made me giggle....

    Gas prices may hit $4 before falling back


    I dedicate this post to Randall.

    Look for $4 in some markets and for the national average to peak near $3.50 a gallon before the Fourth of July. But relief should follow, if everything falls into place. And there are no hurricanes.

    Click the headline for the whole article.

    Wednesday, April 26, 2006


    To be fair to Randy, I made this collage of me. It's not totally fair though because I don't have as many pictures of Randy as I do myself... and most of the pictures I have of myself are from the last 4 years :) {Hooray for digital cameras :) } One of the projects I have on my list is to scan all my old photos haha then I probably will NOT be making a collage of those...... :) Not that these photos are the greatest but ....  Posted by Picasa

    Haha OMG I thought this was fine and then I got to the line about Famous Type A's ...

    Your Inner Blood Type is Type A

    You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy.
    You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself.
    Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in.
    People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal.

    You are most compatible with: A and AB

    Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and Hilter
    Your Love Life Secrets Are

    Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

    You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?

    You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.

    In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.

    A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well.


    You Are Austin

    A little bit country, a little bit rock and roll.
    You're totally weird and very proud of it.
    Artistic and freaky, you still seem to fit in... in your own strange way.

    Famous Austin residents: Lance Armstrong, Sandra Bullock, Andy Roddick

    What Time Of Day Are You?

    You Are Midnight

    You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits.
    Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle.
    Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it.
    You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

    What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

    Your Birth Month is June

    Peaceful and harmonious, you seek the gentle side of life.
    Your warmth and consideration touches many.

    Your soul reflects: Friendship, love, and beauty

    Your gemstone: Pearl

    Your flower: Rose

    Your colors: Light blue, white, and cream

    The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test

    You Are Balanced - Realist - Powerful

    You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally.
    You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go.
    Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control.
    Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow.

    You are a realist when it comes to luck.
    You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random.
    You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...
    But you do your best to try to make your own luck.

    When it comes to who's in charge, it's you.
    Life is a kingdom, and you're the grand ruler.
    You don't care much about what others think.
    But they better care what you think!

    Tuesday, April 25, 2006

    Photos from Scotland



    Do you believe President Bush's actions justify impeachment?

    Click the headline to answer for yourself and see the results of this MSNBC poll! I think you will be really really surprised! I was.

    I won't spoil it and show you the results that popped up when I answered... But, I am STILL very very shocked.

    There had been 259391 responses when I took it.

    Title: Which Boondock Saints Character Are You?




    You are ... Connor MacManus. You're practical and level-headed, but fiercely protective and emotional when it comes to those you care about. Resourceful and quick to laugh, people look to you for guidance and leadership. You are sometimes playful and your bizarre ideas often turn out better than expected. You also happen to believe that you're on a mission from God to kill all of the bad people.

    Randy  Posted by Picasa

    Monday, April 24, 2006


    art Posted by Picasa

    More art show art  Posted by Picasa

    The boys got their new belts this weekend. Cameron got his second Tiny Tiger Black Belt and Liam got his Confirmed Brown Belt !  Posted by Picasa

    Park fun  Posted by Picasa

    Art Show!!


    The boys had an art show at the library tonight, was even live music :) and finger foods. It was fun  Posted by Picasa

    Poodle fun :) Posted by Picasa

    Liam and Cameron at the park Posted by Picasa

    World's Smallest Political Quiz


    Thanks to Old Gary (the Centrist :p) for the link to this quiz :)

    I discovered that I am a Libertarian. Note: this is NOT the same as a Liberal!
  • What is a Libertarian? {click here}

  • ACCORDING TO YOUR ANSWERS,
    The political description that
    fits you best is...
    .
    LIBERTARIAN
    LIBERTARIANS support maximum liberty in both personal and
    economic matters. They advocate a much smaller government; one
    that is limited to protecting individuals from coercion and violence.
    Libertarians tend to embrace individual responsibility, oppose
    government bureaucracy and taxes, promote private charity, tolerate
    diverse lifestyles, support the free market, and defend civil liberties.
    The RED DOT on the Chart shows where you fit on the political map.
    Your PERSONAL issues Score is 90% Libertarian
    Your ECONOMIC issues Score is 70% Libertarian


    How People Have Scored

    Centrist 32.18 %

    Right (Conservative) 7.82 %

    Libertarian 33.86 %

    Left (Liberal) 18.15 %

    Statist (Big Government) 7.99 %

    Some famous Libertarians: Clint Eastwood, Dave Barry, Drew Carey, Melanie, Walter Williams, Russell Means, Milton Friedman, Dwight Yoakam, Kurt Russell, Esther Dyson, Congressman Ron Paul

    What Commentators Say

    What do reporters and political commentators think about libertarians and libertarianism? Here's a small sample of what they've written in magazines and newspapers:

    "The Libertarian philosophy advocates the old Jeffersonian ideal of 'That government is best which governs least.' " -- The San Bernadino County Sun (California), January 4, 2004

    "Principled, focused, and idealistic, Libertarians have a simple agenda: small government, freedom, personal responsibility. Many of us accept these basic concepts, but have become accustomed to government handouts. The Libertarians keep us aware that liberty, not high-tax serfdom, was once the American dream." -- Barbara Anderson (>), The Sun (Lowell, Massachusetts), April 7, 2002

    "The libertarian philosophy has been around from the time God gave Moses the Ten Commandments telling the world that it is wrong to lie, steal, and cheat. If every individual followed the libertarian philosophy of not initiating force on others, there would indeed truly be world peace." -- Howard J. Blitz, The Yuma Sun (Arizona), January 7, 2004

    "Libertarianism is simplicity itself. It proceeds from a single, quite beautiful, concept of the primacy of individual liberty that, in turn, infuses notions of free markets, limited government, and the importance of property rights." -- Susan Lee, The Wall Street Journal, February 17, 2003

    "Political libertarianism is the cutting-edge politics of the time..." -- The Village Voice, New York, February 12, 1996

    "Libertarianism is on the rise." -- Hillary Johnson, Worth Magazine, November 2000

    "The core divide in American politics now is not between liberals and conservatives, or between capitalists and socialists. It is between libertarians and communitarians." -- E.J. Dionne (<), The Washington Post, May 19, 2003

    "Libertarian ideas fascinate me. They make conservatives and liberals angry in different ways. They confront Republicans and Democrats with their own inconsistencies. At their best, libertarians are fierce thinkers and debaters but kind of heart and spirit. They cast aside violence, extol freedom, and demand self-responsibility." -- Allan Saxe, Fort Worth Star-Telegram (Texas), June 29, 1996

    "Libertarians believe in minimal government and maximum individual freedom." -- W. James Antle III, IntellectualConservative.com, October 15, 2003

    "The revival of libertarian ideas in many countries of the world reflects a growing disdain for government, yes, a loss of faith in the capability of governments to solve major problems of modern societies." -- Ronald Meinardus, The Korea Times, November 7, 2003

    "Libertarians believe in small government, reduced taxes, and the U.S. Constitution -- the Constitution as written by the Founding Fathers." -- Danville Register & Bee (North Carolina), May 19, 2000

    "You have to respect Libertarians for their respect of principle and ideas." -- Newsday (New York), October 20, 1998

    "Among the adversaries of Big Government on the American scene, few have proven more principled than the libertarians." -- Pat Buchanan (>), WorldNetDaily.com, January 22, 2002

    "Basically, Libertarians are all about individualism and letting people get on with their lives with as little intereference as possible. I can dig it. My problem with Republicans is their rather selfish, intolerant, cavalier philosophy; the main drawback for Democrats is their general failure to grasp reality, an overzealous idealism, you could call it. The attraction of Libertarianism is it seems to be a more practical, intelligent alternative to these two extremes." -- D. Allan Kerr, Seacoast Online (New Hampshire), September 16, 2004

    Other Political Philosophies

    Left (Liberal)
    Liberals usually embrace freedom of choice in personal matters,but tend to support significant government control of the economy. They generally support a government-funded "safety net" to help the disadvantaged, and advocate strict regulation of business. Liberals tend to favor environmental regulations, defend civil liberties and free expression, support government action to promote equality, and tolerate diverse lifestyles.

    Centrist
    Centrists espouse a "middle ground" regarding government control of the economy and personal behavior. Depending on the issue, they sometimes favor government intervention and sometimes support individual freedom of choice. Centrists pride themselves on keeping an open mind, tend to oppose "political extremes," and emphasize what they describe as "practical" solutions to problems.

    Right (Conservative)
    Conservatives tend to favor economic freedom, but frequently support laws to restrict personal behavior that violates "traditional values." They oppose excessive government control of business, while endorsing government action to defend morality and the traditional family structure. Conservatives usually support a strong military, oppose bureaucracy and high taxes, favor a free-market economy, and endorse strong law enforcement.

    Statist (Big Government)
    Statists want government to have a great deal of power over the economy and individual behavior. They frequently doubt whether economic liberty and individual freedom are practical options in today's world. Statists tend to distrust the free market, support high taxes and centralized planning of the economy, oppose diverse lifestyles, and question the importance of civil liberties.

    Sunday, April 23, 2006

    The Uncanny Valley



    Because I can NEVER remember this phrase.....

    The Uncanny Valley


    Why are monster-movie zombies so horrifying
    and talking animals so fascinating?


    Written and illustrated by Dave Bryant


    Japanese roboticist Doctor Masahiro Mori is not exactly a household name—but, for the speculative fiction community at least, he could prove to be an important one. The reason why can be summed up in a simple, strangely elegant phrase that translates into English as “the uncanny valley”.
    Though originally intended to provide an insight into human psychological reaction to robotic design, the concept expressed by this phrase is equally applicable to interactions with nearly any nonhuman entity. Stated simply, the idea is that if one were to plot emotional response against similarity to human appearance and movement, the curve is not a sure, steady upward trend. Instead, there is a peak shortly before one reaches a completely human “look” . . . but then a deep chasm plunges below neutrality into a strongly negative response before rebounding to a second peak where resemblance to humanity is complete.

    This chasm—the uncanny valley of Doctor Mori’s thesis—represents the point at which a person observing the creature or object in question sees something that is nearly human, but just enough off-kilter to seem eerie or disquieting. The first peak, moreover, is where that same individual would see something that is human enough to arouse some empathy, yet at the same time is clearly enough not human to avoid the sense of wrongness. The slope leading up to this first peak is a province of relative emotional detachment—affection, perhaps, but rarely more than that.
    The figure to the right diagrams this curve of emotional response, plotting it (from top to bottom) first against how closely an entity’s motion resembles human movement, then against physical resemblance to human appearance, and last against a synthesis of the two. It is significant to note, judging from the relative depth of the curves, that Dr. Mori apparently considers motion more important than simple appearance, though he stresses that both are affected at least as much by subtle nuances as by more striking factors.
    The conclusion drawn by the good doctor is that designers of robots or prosthetics should not strive overly hard to duplicate human appearance, lest some seemingly minor flaw drop the hapless android or cyborg into the uncanny valley—a fate to be dreaded by all concerned. He maintains instead that a prosthesis or a robot should be visibly artificial, but smart and stylish in appearance, placing it somewhere near the top of the first peak. This ethos, incidentally, can be seen clearly in a great many science fiction and fantasy manga and animé stories.
    The same factors that inspired Doctor Mori to research and describe the uncanny valley and the rest of the curve to which it belongs are of immediate concern to any creator of fantasy or science fiction. Aside from the readily apparent potential for careful tailoring of a character’s or species’ “look and feel” to evoke a specific reaction from the audience, there are some perhaps surprising possibilities and consequences.


    Here Be Dragons


    In reality, it seems likely that alien sophonts are so completely unlike humans or other terrestrial life that communication or any kind of empathy, possibly even recognition of the aliens as intelligent beings, would be difficult at best. Such a case falls very low on the initial slope at the left of each of the charts in the figure above. Bafflement might well be the dominant human reaction: the sort of mental confusion that results when one looks at something one knows is there but can’t quite make out, like a camouflaged figure against a wooded background or an unexpected optical illusion. Even becoming accustomed to the presence of such aliens might not improve matters significantly, other than to inure humans to the idea that they are outside the bounds of comprehension.

    Of course, fiction and art are created by humans for human audiences. While enigmatic alien life or ineffable elder deities have their place in such works, for the most part it is necessary, and easier, to create fictitious creatures with at least some vague kinship to man—a concept familiar to readers of this magazine as anthropomorphism. Perhaps not surprisingly, the realm of the anthropomorphic character stretches from near the height of the first peak, through the uncanny valley, to the final peak at the right of the curve, as seen in the figure to the right. It is here that the overwhelming majority of characters fit, whether from the earliest campfire tales and cave drawings or the latest Web archives.
    A closer examination of this section of the curve reveals four distinct regions of interest. From right to left, they are the steep slope falling off from the final peak, the uncanny valley itself, the corresponding steep slope on the valley’s other side, and the rounded peak linking that slope to the more gradual one at the left of the chart.
    The rightmost slope is where every member of the human species can be placed, as well as those fictitious beings similar enough to humans to be mistaken for them under less than ideal viewing conditions. At the top of the slope would be any healthy, normal-looking person; at the bottom, perhaps even in the uncanny valley itself, might be the profoundly disfigured or deformed, such as John Merrick, the so-called “Elephant Man”. Between these extremes one could place an ill but otherwise normal person (near the top), a Bunraku puppet (as Dr. Mori does), a handicapped individual—roughly at the neutral reaction line—and below that a typical prosthetic hand designed to mimic, imperfectly, a natural one.


    Down in the Valley


    The uncanny valley itself is where dwell monsters, in the classic sense of the word. Frankenstein’s creation, the undead, the ingeniously twisted demons of animé and their inspirations from legend and myth, and indeed all the walking terrors and horrors of man’s imagining belong here. In essence, they tend to be warped funhouse-mirror images of humanity, and many if not most share one or both of a pair of common traits.
    The more obvious of these is overt, intimidating superhuman power, whether physical or paranormal, but the other is far subtler. Recent research suggests that the human idea of beauty may rest on a surprisingly simple foundation: symmetry. According to the study, symmetry of face and body suggests health and vigor—and therefore genetic fitness—while asymmetry implies the opposite.
    Besides explaining the instinctive repugnance people tend to feel toward more mundane distortions of the human body, this can be extrapolated to include all manner of more exotic malformations. Unpleasant surface textures, exaggerated features or proportions, and incongruous, out-of-place additions or inclusions, even body parts that are not directly connected to one another yet move in concert, all reach deep into the primitive part of the human mind to draw forth fear and disgust.
    And so we answer the first part of the question with which this article began. Hollywood and, before it, countless authors have unconsciously exploited the uncanny valley to thrill audiences with creatures and villains carefully designed to fall into a pit every bit as awful as that of Hell. One might even make a case that they are in fact one and the same.


    The Other Side of the Mountain


    Sundered from humanity by the uncanny valley is a not-quite-mirror image slope and peak. Here are fairylands and alien empires that never were, beautiful and terrible, in all their myriad variety. Near the bottom are those creations that, by virtue of some saving grace, are not so horrible as their brethren. As one goes higher, one finds ever more attractive or appealing or even simply impressive beings, until one reaches the point at which the curve tops out in a sharp “knee”. For the writer or artist of speculative fiction, this peak, along with the valley below, is probably one of the most important parts of the entire chart, out of all proportion to its relatively small size.
    Aesop may well be the earliest storyteller we know of to take full advantage of this peak. By casting his fables with talking animals, he was able to accomplish two important things. Stereotyping the animals—the sly fox being the best-known example—gave him and his listeners a quick shorthand characterization. Perhaps even more importantly, by eschewing humans, especially particular individuals recognizable to his audience, he could create enough metaphorical distance both to provide perspective on the lessons conveyed by the stories and to escape the retribution so many rulers in history have visited on those who would spread unpleasant truths.
    These literary tricks have become mainstays, for they work exceedingly well. Public-service advertisements of the eighties and nineties featured an animated anthropomorphic hound in a trench-coat, encouraging cooperation with police agencies and the formation of neighborhood watch programs. With this character, the creators avoided using a human of any recognizable ethnic type, which might have impaired the effectiveness of the campaign in some areas.
    There are many other ways of reaching this peak of not-quite-human appeal, but as the above examples show, one of the most popular is to combine animal traits—usually fellow mammals—with human characteristics. A more or less human body with therianthropic, or animal-like, head, tail, and perhaps fur is an idea that dates back possibly as far as cave paintings and certainly to the pantheon of ancient Egypt, and can be found in many cultures, including medieval Europe. Today’s community of anthropomorphic artists and fans are heir to a rich legacy.
    And so we answer the second half of the question at the beginning. Down through history, tale-spinners and artists unconsciously have sought the peak above and just short of the uncanny valley to win over audiences with appealing or sympathetic characters for purposes as diverse as advertising mascots and children’s stuffed toys.


    Full Circle


    Humans might not be the only ones to exploit this fascinating psychological peculiarity. What of those hypothetical aliens at the far end of the chart? They may well find us as puzzling as we find them, and there may be a vast technological gap as well. How, then, might the two species find a way to communicate? The British SF author Christopher Boyce proposed an intriguing solution to this impasse.
    A carefully crafted species of artificial life form, tailored specifically to hit the aforementioned peak of appeal, could act as go-betweens, easing humans through the initial contact process. He describes a creature slightly smaller than humans, with a graceful bearing and attractive figure, large, appealing eyes, reddish deerlike fur, feline or doe-like facial features, soft, musical voice and laughter, and most importantly, a pretty smile.
    Boyce intended this brief sketch as an example, noting that the exact design might vary considerably from it. Still, it is worth noting the strong resemblance his musings bear to the anthropomorphic characters discussed above, reinforcing the supposition that animal-human combinations are deeply entrenched in the human psyche.


    Conclusion


    Doctor Masahiro Mori’s uncanny valley and its environs are fascinating terrain, offering an elegant and captivating explanation for the foundations of human ideals of beauty and ugliness. Their implications for the author, filmmaker, and artist reach far beyond the original focus of industrial design, yet include it as well, and they provide all manner of creators with signposts, aiding in the effort to achieve just the right impression for a character and to avoid missteps that could put off an audience. Last of all, others might find it just as useful, opening still more doors on as yet unknowable possibilities. Ω


    Bibliography


    Mori, Masahiro. The Buddha in the Robot. Charles E. Tuttle Co., 1982; ISBN 4333010020.


    Reichardt, Jasia. Robots: Fact, Fiction, and Prediction. Penguin Books, 1978; ISBN 0 14 00.4938 X. While badly dated and rife with the faint sound of axes grinding, this book does contain an excellent summation of Dr. Mori’s “uncanny valley”.


    Boyce, Christopher. Extraterrestrial Encounter: a Personal Perspective. Publisher unknown, 1979. Nearly all the text of this book has been published on the Web by the author.

    Saturday, April 22, 2006


    Dragonball Z ! :) Posted by Picasa

    What happened?!? haha Posted by Picasa

    With the finished figure.  Posted by Picasa

    Cameron in action with an action figure :) Posted by Picasa

    Some more pics of Elvis's old ranch. I really want to sneak in and get closer someday. It's just sitting there in a field with the cows. Nothing happening to it at all. I love the hot pink color. Nothing quiet about Elvis... not even his 'getaway' ranch. :) Posted by Picasa

    Charlie & Mikey :) awww so cute! hehe Posted by Picasa