Do you know the people you meet in your life that you have always known? That you love wholly & completely within 5 seconds of meeting them? The people that travel with you in your soul even if they are long gone from your physical life? Maybe you know what I'm talking about, maybe you don't. But, one thing I've realized is that there have been a LOT more of these people in my life than I had the ability to recognize while they were close to me.
Aaron Lamont is just one such person that I have met in my life. Aaron and I probably should have just went with our first instincts and got it on and had beautiful Elf babies..... lol. But, we never even kissed and we were close enough to sleep skin on skin and feel totally at peace with each other. I taught Aaron how to drive, he washed my dirty dishes at 4 in the morning, 2 in the afternoon or 11 at night, whenever I needed him to. I went to straight edge shows with him and got drunk (always have to be different don't i?), he came to my holy places and fell off his own wagon and got drunk. We poured ice water on each others heads in the 125 degree version of hell which was the kitchen that we worked in together for YEARS. In a sense we grew up together although we were both Far older than our years and in many ways Far Younger too.
Aaron is a few real time years younger than me. Not many just a few. We both had to play our parts in this dance of life, to learn about everything else so that someday we could learn about US. Haha it's sooo obvious to me now, but it couldn't have been to me then. I hadn't seen enough. I hadn't learned enough, I hadn't taught enough..... and neither had Aaron.
Josh met Aaron once. So did Brian. Both of them felt extremely unloved in comparison to the love that they felt me show towards Aaron. In fact, neither one of them could even comprehend that I had had NO relations with him except as a friend. NONE well except for loving him completely and totally this whole time. Going with him on his journeys through step-fatherhood, punkrock stardom, stripper supporthood< Lol is that a word??, professional paradigm adjustment specialist. Lol our lives have been very parallel for reasons that are only now making sense to me.
In the last decade I can count on one hand the number of times I've seen and talked to Aaron. I don't want it to be like that for the next decade. I have decided to try to find all the people that I've known like Aaron.. lol starting with Aaron of course! I don't want it to be a weird thing, I just want to start with a more conscious acknowledgement of all the people in my life that really MEAN something and always have. Even though at the time I was dealing with the drama, the 10% of life that uses up 90% of our resources. Oh how I wish I had been strong enough to set the balance more correctly. But, then again if I had been then, I would not be ME now... so No regrets, just determination to be ME now and not lose that.
I am not the only one looking for Aaron... I found this googling around.
{Aaron Lamont
Aaron is male, in his late twenties, muscular and fairly short; normally blond. Aaron is a musician and singer, predominantly Punk Music. Last known to live in the Portland Oregon area. Have not heard from him in about two years. Tell him his birth father, Mike, misses him and would like to hear from him.
City: Lakewood
Email: snyderstudio@earthlink.net
Entry #784 added on April 22, 1998 }
If I do 'find' Aaron again I will give him this message if he has not already got it.
I think I know where Aaron is, I have a feeling he is still where I saw him a few years ago... Lol it's only 3000 miles away.........
Quarterback Pub & Eatery 356 36th St, Bellingham, WA(360) 647-8132 Entertainment: TVs Occasions: Private PartiesBeverages: Cocktails Cuisine: American, Hamburgers, Steaks Quarterback Pub And Eatery serves a variety of foods including American,Hamburgers and Steaks. Entree's are priced between $10.00 and $20.00.Quarterback Pub And Eatery356 36th St.( @ Samish St.)Bellingham, WA 98225
It seems like it should be easy just to call some night and say "Is Aaron working?" and leave a message if he is not.... I wonder why it's so hard for me to do things like that? Well maybe Aaron is important enough that I will be able to conquer my phobia of calling unknown places......
Anyway until then, if you happen to see an absolutely beautiful male of about 5ft 8 inches of height and between 160-200lbs (it goes up & down) that was named to honor Elvis Presley, grew up on a Hippie Island Commune, is a punk rock Gawd :p, smartASS extraordinaire, understands the child's book Lamont the Lonely Monster, and slings beer & food to people that he mostly despises but loves at the same time, has a very rueful smirk smile that shows no teeth, does not handle BS well, and has been through more F'd up crap than anyone should ever have had to, well tell him I said Hi and I'm looking for him.....
