Hmmm

Your True Love Is a Libra

Why you'll love a Libra: Social and charming, a Libra is sure to turn your head in a group setting. Libra has the style and grace to intrigue you... and the passionate soul to reel you in. Why a Libra will love you: You're laid back and patient. Libra doesn't feel rushed to make a decision with you. An appreciator of beauty, you can show Libra all sorts of inspiration - from art to nature.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

Like I say, I may be up all day but that doesn't mean I'm awake!

You Are a Night Person

For you, there's nothing worse than having to get up and moving early. In fact, you probably don't hit your peak until well after the sun has set. So if your struggling to make it on a normal schedule, realize it's not your fault. You just weren't meant to do anything during the day!

Are You a Morning Person or Night Person?

Violet is 1 N away from Violent... that's an inside joke :)

Your Psyche is Violet

You are spiritual, intuitive, and serene. People trust you to rescue them from bad situations, and you usually come through. While you are quite enlightened, you find that your path is very lonely. When you are too violet: you can't connect to ordinary life or ordinary people When you don't have enough violet: you lack wisdom and can't learn from the past

What Color Is Your Psyche?

Haha tell me something I don't know ;p

Your Family Is 74% Dysfunctional

Your family definitely has some major problems, and they're still effecting you today. It's time for you to step back, reassess, and decide what kind of role your family should have in your life. The people around you can be toxic, and there's no reason to let your family bring you down. Consider getting some therapy or talking the situation over with a good friend. And spend more time around people who truly care for you!

Is Your Family Dysfunctional?

The really odd couple: Depp, Burton reunite

‘Sweeney Todd’ marks the actor and director sixth collaboration


updated 5:30 p.m. CT, Wed., Dec. 12, 2007
NEW YORK - Dressed in drag and standing in front of a meat locker, Johnny Depp smiles into the camera and cheerfully declares, “Tim’s a swell guy.”

In its genuine warmth and weirdness, this moment, played out between scenes during the filming of 1994’s “Ed Wood,” encapsulates the ongoing collaboration between Depp and director Tim Burton.

Even amid the dark, surreal worlds the two have brought to life, they’re all smiles.

Click the title to read the rest....

There But for the Grace of God go I

Random thought of today.

Pink- Dear Mr President - Live

it makes me cry


A personal view of the song someone made.

create your own visited states map
or check out these Google Hacks.

Still working on it....

Friday, June 23, 2006

I recently found out that I have a Fear of having Fears.

Phobophobia. I think that is very funny. AND it explains why I go out of my way to conquer all my fears and to be fearless. I have always been a tomboy and a daredevil. Always trying to prove to myself that I am NOT afraid of anything. Even if I'm terrified.

Right now I am trying to conquer a new fear. Philophobia- Fear of falling in love or being in love. It seems that I have a few more fears than I'd like to admit. I'm hoping with a little self-analysis I can conquer this fear pretty quickly.

I wonder why I don't have a fear of psychopathic, narcissistic, sociopathic, crap-piles walking around disguised as people. That would make more sense to me. :D

___________________________________________________________________________________

Posted by Chavis on Tuesday, July 04, 2006 at 3:07 AM
To answer your last question, Ive always found it hard to be afraid of something I can stab.

Posted by Wenchie LostElf on Tuesday, July 04, 2006 at 10:02 AM
HAHA! You do have a way with words :D and you know I think you pinned down my feelings EXACTLY. Thanks hon!

Friday, September 29, 2006

Survey


How tall are you barefoot?
- 5'1 ish

2. Have you ever been cheated on?
- yes

3. Do you own a gun?
- no

4. If you had a mental disorder, what would it be?
- ADHD, PTSD, Suicidal Depression

5. How many letters are in your crush's name?
- Don't have one at the moment

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
- They should go swimming or something and cool down

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
- No such thing as a Christmas song worth listening to.

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
- Coffee, Diet coke, water….

9. Do you do push-ups?
- yes

10. Have you ever done ecstasy?
-

11. Do you like Disney World?
- meh

12. Do you like the rain?
- LOVE rain

13. Do you own a knife?
- yes Several… have 15 in my room..

14. What do you smell like?
- hmmm someone would have to smell me and let me know that.

15. Do you have A.D.D.?
- Yeppers

16. Initials?
-CEM or WLE

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.
- Head aches, should I cook dinner? Soooo tired.

18. Name the last 3 things you bought this week.
- books, diet coke, birthday present for my niece

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink.?
- diet coke, coffee, tea

20. What time did you wake up today?
-5:55am

21. Can you spell?
- sometimes if I concentrate

22. Current worry?
- too many to list really

23. Current hate?
- whiney ass bitches :D

24. Favorite place?
- Flathead Lake Montana, or Seattle, WA

25. Least favorite place to be?
- Suburbia BFE

26. Where do you want to go?
- Everywhere!

27. Do you own slippers?
- Lots and lots of slippers…

28. Where do you think you will be in 10 years?
- um that's like the future and everything…….

29. Do you burn or tan?
- tan

30. Yellow or blue?
- blue

31. Would you give up your current life to be a pirate?
- In a Heartbeat

32. Last time your cell rang?
- Not sure, probably when I was taking a shower.

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
- I don't do this

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
- The under the bed monster and the closet monster…. In fact I put my mattress flat on the floor to this day and CLOWNS!

35. What's in your pockets right now?
- No pockets.

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
- Something stupid in EQ2 I'm sure

37. How many countries have you been to?
- 3

38. What actor/actress do you have a crush on?
- It pretty much changes daily. Norman Reedus has been pretty consistant for awhile :D

39. What is(was) your GPA?
- No idea

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
- Don't have a house, if I had a house I would have 1 TV.

41. Who is your loudest friend?
-Can't remember, it's been a long time since I've actually heard my friends.

42. Who is your most silent friend?
- See above ^

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
- No idea

44. Do you wish upon stars?
- no. I try very hard not to wish for things. Because as the saying goes, you just might get it…

46. What song did you last hear?
- System of a Down BYOB

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
- um how fucking depressing is this question… NEXT

49. What were you doing 12AM last night?
- Playing EQ2

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
- 2 hours of sleep is just not enough.

This is all pretty true still~ lol

Monday, March 05, 2007
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Courtney/Wenchie/Hey You
Birthday: the first day of summer
Birthplace: Coastal Oregon
Current Location: Deep South Mississippi
Eye Color: Greenish
Hair Color: Blonde/Red/Brown/Black
Height: Short
Right Handed or Left Handed: Both
Your Heritage: Mixed
The Shoes You Wore Today: None
Your Weakness: Being too nice
Your Fears: Normal People
Your Perfect Pizza: None
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Freedom
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: ???
Thoughts First Waking Up: Here we go again
Your Best Physical Feature: smile
Your Bedtime: Usually right before I wake up... Insomniacs Unite!
Your Most Missed Memory: Happy Childhood ones
Pepsi or Coke: ewww
MacDonalds or Burger King: double ewwww
Single or Group Dates: dates? who goes on dates?
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: ewwwwwwwww
Chocolate or Vanilla: Huckleberry
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee, Lots and Lots of Coffee
Do you Smoke: No
Do you Swear: Constantly
Do you Sing: Nope
Do you Shower Daily: If my daily depression scale is not so low that showering seems like a monumental task
Have you Been in Love: Yes :(
Do you want to go to College: NO
Do you want to get Married: I'd like a life partner is that the same thing?
Do you belive in yourself: Yes
Do you get Motion Sickness: Only when I drink too much
Do you think you are Attractive: Not so much anymore
Are you a Health Freak: Not so much anymore
Do you get along with your Parents: Not really no
Do you like Thunderstorms: Yes
Do you play an Instrument: .....
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Yeppers
In the past month have you Smoked: Nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs: Not of the illegal variety
In the past month have you gone on a Date: Nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: I don't go to malls
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: No, while sometimes I am suicidal I am not THAT suicidal
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: No but not by choice.
In the past month have you been on Stage: Nope
In the past month have you been Dumped: Nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Nope, the pool is still closed for the winter
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: No
Ever been Drunk: Yes
Ever been called a Tease: No
Ever been Beaten up: Yep
Ever Shoplifted: Not in the last 20 years
How do you want to Die: Quickly
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Alive
What country would you most like to Visit: I'd like to visit all of them
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Green but I'm not that picky
Favourite Hair Color: Dont have a favorite
Short or Long Hair: Bald is Cool
Height: Tall
Weight: Anything but Obese
Best Clothing Style: Casual
Number of Drugs I have taken: ......
Number of CDs I own: Lots but not enough
Number of Piercings: it changes 11 Right now
Number of Tattoos: 1
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Not trusting myself more.

Almost a year ago

This was written January 3, 2007 (a lot has changed and a lot has stayed the same...)

Current mood: apathetic

Happy 2007!

My parents were out late last night gambling and celebrating and when I stumbled downstairs at 7:00 am they were on their way out the door again. Guess Dad is on a hot streak and they are trying to get enough money together to buy a new Lexus. Mom wants a Lexus before she dies. And her thinking is that since she might not live too long they better get busy on it. Can't say as I find fault with that thinking and since she does have breast/lung cancer it's true that she might die soon. But, I have this feeling she'll live to be 90 if not longer. As my sister says, Evil never dies. Not that mom is evil incarnate exactly, she's just evil enough to live to be 90.

My sons spent the weekend in Atlanta with my sister and her kids. They have fun over there, lots of people and things to do. So it was just me at the house last night. I was too down and depressed to play EQ2 or even read. Which is pretty damn down. No particular reason for it. Just couldn't get enough energy up to open my eyes and face life I guess.

Right before Mom left the house this morning she started rambling about getting her poodles groomed. It seems she has this theory that nothing can be done because Pres. George W Bush has extended Pres. Ford's funeral and viewing for a couple days because of the holidays. In my Mom's mind this translates into the fact that dog groomers will have extra days off. I have NO idea how you get these 2 thoughts to reconcile to each other but she does. As I was standing there slugging back my coffee listening to her ramble on about it, it just seemed to prove that I really do live in the freaking twilight zone.

This morning I started reading a book so I must be feeling a bit better. Not that laying in bed reading a book is the epitomy of being energized and full of life. It's just that much better than laying in bed not reading a book. I even managed to feed the sea monkeys. Sea monkeys are just about the perfect pet. I highly recommend them. I like my birds and the fish are cool. Mom's poodles are a pain in the ass, even though the kids seem to enjoy them. But, for easy maintenance vs. entertainment value sea monkeys win hands down.

Well I'm going back to my book. Who knows I might even get up later and do something exciting, like the laundry, or clean the bathrooms, hell I might go really wild and shampoo the carpets! We'll just have to wait and see. Life is what you make it and well life in BFE Mississippi is not that much different than life anywhere else, really, just a whole lot less going on.

(after thinking about it I figured out what the hell my problem is... I'm homesick. I want to go home, not to the 'home' where my family is, but my real home. Just like Dorothy, except without the red shiny shoes.

I really really do not belong in Mississippi or anywhere near here. I'm trying and there are some good things about being here but I miss Washington, I miss Seattle, I miss Bellingham, I miss Sedro-Woolley, hell I even miss Mount Vernon. I miss knowing where things are, I miss the Sound, the mountains, the rain, the cold gray skies, I miss Jack-in-the-Box, I miss the Skagit River, Mount Baker, Hwy 20, Chuckanut Dr. I miss my friends most of all.

I've moved tons of times. I have lived all over the country but I lived in WA the longest and I guess it got in me. Even when I was a kid I didn't get homesick. Well that's not a surprise really. When I was shipped off to various people for months at a time, I was THANKFUL to not be at home. Most of the time I didn't even know where I was or the people that I was staying with. And that was just fine and dandy with me.

Oh well I keep telling myself, this too shall pass. And I know it will. I am determined that my boys will be happy, healthy and safe so it's worth it to be here for them. It's just sometimes, I really really want to go home.)

Don't think he'll be calling anytime soon! :)

I love Seether's music and I just stumbled upon this picture. I just have to say... WAY to go Shaun!

Tyler Shields
photography
Shaun Morgan

for The Dirty Side of Glamour

Crazy is all I can say
This was A crazy shoot this is Shaun Morgan from the band Seether if this photo doesnt make sense let me break it down for you…Everyone has heard the song “Call me When your sober” This song is about Amy Lee’s former boyfriend Shaun Morgan who you see below They broke up and she wrote the song about him check out seether on myspace www.myspace.com/seether
I have to say out of everyone I have shot for my new book Shaun was down to get the craziest so far thanks to Shaun for being such a madd man…



Seether Frontman Won't Respond To Amy Lee's Attack: 'I Just Refuse To Lower Myself To That Level'
You won't hear Shaun Morgan's side of the 'Call Me When You're Sober' story on October 23's Finding Beauty in Negative Spaces.
By: Chris Harris
Most of us would love to have a hit song written about us. Seether's Shaun Morgan isn't one of those people.

But that didn't stop his ex-girlfriend, Evanescence's Amy Lee, from penning "Call Me When You're Sober," a tune she later admitted was specifically written about her relationship with Morgan. And the timing couldn't have been worse for Lee's damning revelation, coming just weeks after Morgan checked himself into rehab for treatment of "a combination of substances." His rehab stint, coincidentally, began on the very same day the Evanescence track was delivered to the nation's rock radio stations.

As you might expect, Morgan wasn't thrilled with Lee's public airing of the pair's dirty laundry. For the last year, the song has "followed me around and haunted me," he said, and it chipped away at his reputation.

"People would say to me, 'Yeah, man, I know what you're going through,' and I was like, 'No, I don't think you do,' " Morgan explained. " 'Your ex-girlfriend didn't write a song about you, that millions of people have heard, saying you're a bad guy. As soon as that happens, buddy, come up and tell me you know what I'm going through.' "

Now, clean and sober, Morgan and his band are returning with their third studio outing, Finding Beauty in Negative Spaces, which is set for an October 23 release. But don't expect the LP to contain a response track.

"There isn't necessarily a response as there's a lament," the singer for the South African rockers said. "I was bummed out. I was really upset that she would say and do those things. In any relationship, I don't think it's right to say and do those things when people break up, and she obviously felt the need to go out there and make me sound like a complete a--hole. What can I do? I just refuse to lower myself to that level. But it was a painful thing and it got me down ? people coming up to me on the street and referring to that song. But I didn't feel the need to write back and be mean."

I am alive, Really!

Yes I'm alive. No I'm not online very much at all. At least not lately. Lots of GOOD & BAD, yes both in all caps, have been happening, someday I'll be back around :) Until then... LOVE & HUGS!

Alcohaulin' Ass-by HELLYEAH

Reason #3,256 Dave Grohl is HOT!

Rockin' with the Foos! This video gets INTENSE at about 3:30, check it out!

Foo Fighters ~The Pretender

Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend
Keep you in the dark
And so it all began

Send in your skeletons
Sing as their bones go marching in... again
The need you buried deep
The secrets that you keep are ever ready
Are you ready?
I'm finished making sense
Done pleading ignorance
That whole defense

Spinning infinity, boy
The wheel is spinning me
It's never-ending, never-ending
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one in your place
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?
x2

In time or so i'm told
I'm just another soul for sale... oh, well
The page is out of print
We are not permanent
We're temporary, temporary
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one in your place
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?
x2

I'm the voice inside your head
You refuse to hear
I'm the face that you have to face
Mirrored in your stare
I'm what's left, I'm what's right
I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that will take you down
Bring you to your knees

So who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?

Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one in your place
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?
x2

What if I say I'm not like the others?
(Keep you in the dark)
What if I say I'm not just another one in your place
(You know they all... pretend)
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?
x2

So who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?

Daughtry - it's not over

Chris Daughtry - It's Not Over lyrics

I was blown away
What could I say
It all seemed to make sense.
You've taken away everything
That I can't do without.

I try to see the good in life.
But good things in life are hard to find.
I'll blow it away, blow it away
Can we make this something good?

(well i'll try to do it right this time around)
let's start over,
I'll try to do it right this time around
It's not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me
But you're the only one
It's not over.

I've taken all I can take
And I cannot wait
We've wasted too much time
Being strong and holding on
Can't let it bring us down

My life with you means everything
So I won't give up that easily
I'll blow it away, blow it away
Can we make this something good?

Cause it's all misunderstood

(Well I'll try to do it right this time around)
Let's start over,
I'll try to do it right this time around
It's not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me
But you're the only one
It's not over.

We can't let this get away
Let it out, let it out
Don't get caught up in yourself
Let it out.

Let's start over
We'll try to do to it right this time around
Its not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me
But you're the only one
It's not over.

Lets start over
Its not over

Yeah yeah
This love is killing me
But you're the only one
It's not over

Words of Wisdom

The Invitation
By Oriah Mountain Dreamer
(A Native American Elder)

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting in your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit in pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own,if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tip of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you're telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.

I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore be trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty even when it is not pretty every day, and if you can source your life from God's presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!"

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.

I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done for the children.

It doesn't interest me who you are, how you came to be here.

I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.

I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

Aspie Quiz

My results:

Stable version, release 2.2 (2007-08-14)
Thank you for filling out this questionnaire.









Your Aspie AS score: 162 of 200
Your neurotypical NT (non-autistic) score: 33 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie
(note: I have tested as high as 189 out of 200 on similar tests)

"Cure Ignorance project from

Aspergian Pride

: No reasonable person in today’s society would suggest that racial minorities ought to be cured of their skin color or their hair texture. And yet, when the genetic traits of a minority group include a neurological configuration that differs from the majority population to any noticeable extent, society’s tolerance for diversity goes out the window. The Internet and the mass media are filled with profoundly negative and inaccurate stereotypes about the Aspergian population.
To ensure that others will respect and value our diversity, instead of calling for our extermination by way of prenatal testing and eugenic abortion, we must refute these stereotypes. "

For additional links about Asperger's/Autism Spectrum check this page out:

PASSING FOR NEUROTYPICAL

Or these ones:

Lots more info

even more info

A quote from Jared of crazymeds.org that I like, " There isn't an NT inside of us waiting to get out, there's just a pretend NT painted on top of us so the child
abuse would just stop."

The image is from Postsecret.com

One of the most annoying webpages ever

Click the title and you will see for yourself! By annoying I don't mean the content, which is fine. I mean the graphics on the page itself. As you scroll down the page you can see:
2 Flying Flags
2 Reader boards with 2 moving stars ~Large & Small
3 Flashing borders
1 pop-up box suggesting proper viewing size for this page
3 Flying Birds
1 Dancing Spinning Nun
2 trees morphing through seasonal changes in color with attached reader board
and last but not least
A sparkling diamond rose

I am almost positive that most of these things, if not all of them have nothing to do with the content of the page itself, which is actually a Russian Steam Bath. I have no idea what a Russian Steam Bath is though because I never made it past the awful graphics.

March 1, 2004

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Mingle² -

Chicago 4 the weekend

Some of the Chicago photos are up...

now THIS is a car!

The Bugatti Veyron 16.4 is currently the fastest, most powerful, and most expensive street-legal full production car in the world, with a proven top speed of 407.5 km/h (253 mph), though several faster or more expensive vehicles have been produced on a limited basis.
Vehicle type: mid-engine, all-wheel-drive, 2-passenger, 2-door coupe
Base Price: € 1,127,210 (£757 359, $1,440,800)
Engine type: quad-turbocharged and intercooled DOHC 64-valve W-16, aluminium block and heads, direct fuel injection
Displacement: 7993 cm³ (488.8 in³)
Performance Ratings as Tested :
Zero to 60 mph (97 km/h): 2.5 s
Zero to 100 mph (161 km/h): 5.5 s
Zero to 150 mph (241 km/h): 9.8 s
Zero to 200 mph (322 km/h): 19.5 s
Zero to 250 mph (402 km/h): 55 s [5][6]
Zero to 100 km/h: 2.5 s [7]
Zero to 200 km/h: 7.4 s [8]
Zero to 300 km/h: 18.2 s [9]
Zero to 400 km/h: 55 s [10][11]
Top speed (Handling Mode): 233 mph (375 km/h)
Top speed (Electronically Limited): 253.2 mph (407.5 km/h)[12]
Theoretical Top Speed (Drag Limited): 257 mph (414 km/h) [13]

0-100-0mph / 0-160-0km/h: 9.9 s [14]
Standing Quarter-Mile / 402 Meter: 10.2 sec @ 143 mph / 230 km/h [15]
Fuel economy[16]:

EPA city driving: 7 mpg U.S. (34 L/100 km)
EPA highway driving: 10 mpg U.S. (24 L/100 km)
Maintenance will be possible at Bentley dealerships, but repair service will require a flown-in mechanic, whom the company promises will be available 24 hours a day.

(I wonder how much the mechanic costs?!)

This is so true!

“If feelings were food, adult feelings would be things like chocolate-covered steak, mashed potatoes with pineapple bits, Special K with chili powder sprinkled on it instead of sugar. Like some weird déjà vu, came that recurring sense of adulthood’s strange contradictions: a world where you could order blackberry meatloaf or eggs fried in lemon-juice” - Stephen King, Gerald’s Game

Yes this is a repost but I'm having a twilight zone, deja vu sort of week :)

What's your inner power?

Empathy- Your inner power is Empathy! This means that you have a talent for identifying others emotions, often by simply glancing at them. You are EXTREMELY shy and quiet. People sometimes dont notice youre around and seem surprised to find out you even exist in a big class. Youre the often silent, goody two shoes, and few get passed the walls youve built up to stop yourself being hurt, as you no doubt have been in the past. Not everyone understands you, in fact some think that youre a snob or worse because you rarely participate in group activities. Youre extremely sensitive, even the least harsh of words can hurt you. Only your very few, closest friends who have earned your hard-to-get trust know who you really are inside; a sweet, gentle young woman who is lonely and so desperately needing friends to support you. You can get very depressed and not always know why, despite your power of empathy, as it seems to only work for people outside you. Your friends always turn to you when they need advice or comforting, and in some way you need to give that helpit makes you feel better in return to know that youve helped out your friends. Despite your cold, impassive exterior and high, seemingly unbreachable walls, inside you are really a great, intelligent person, full of compassion and love, if only people would dare take a chance and try to get through your tough shell. Never let others get you down, or change you. You are very special the way you areeven if you dont have fifty thousand friends, you are just as, if not more extraordinary than everyone else. Reach for the stars, because I dont doubt youll catch hold of them. Boy/Girl who will sweep you off your feet: A sweet, shy and romantic man/woman. The kind of guy/woman you know will never, ever hurt you, and will love you for ever. The kind of person who believes in true love, and soul mates. Your stone: Blue Topaz Your power: Healing. Emotionally, physically, or spiritually, you heal people with your words, your actions and presence. Youre the one that the little children are always drawn to, because they know youll never let anything hurt them. Your element: Clairvoyance (The power to see objects or events that cannot be perceived by the normal five senses.) A quote that applies to you: "True beauty shines from the soul and warms the world with its kindness, compassion , and integrity."

Eight Random Things (for Susan)

1. I've been married 2 times but divorced 3 times.

2. I died when I was 8, one week before Christmas. I had a really bad asthma attack, went cyanotic (turning blue because of lack of oxygen in the blood) and died. Yes I do remember it.

3. I have moved over 30 times.

4. I've hiked most of the Appalachian, Pacific Crest and Continental Divide Trails.

5. My favorite color is gray. But I love all things shiny. I'm absolutely addicted to shiny things.

6. I am afraid of 4 things: spiders, rats, fear and falling in love.

7. When I was 5 I broke my arm by falling off monkey bars. At the time I fell I was running over the top of the bars, "look no hands!".

8. I still do not know what I want to be when I grow up.

I am tagging

Pete

FYI (mostly for men....)

Scientists reviewed decades of studies on penis size and self-image. Findings: 1) Average erection is 5.5 to 6.2 inches. 2) Twice as many men think their penises are above average in length as think they're below average. 3) Meanwhile, 90 percent of women care more about width than length, and women don't care that much about size in general. 4) While only 55 percent of men are satisfied with the size they're delivering, 85 percent of women are satisfied with the size they're getting. 5) To lengthen their penises, some men "use weights" and others "encourage poisonous snakes to bite their penises to enlarge them for six months," while others "pierce the glans of their penis and insert items into the holes to stimulate their partner." 6) The evidence for "penile extenders" is "poorly documented."

The Summer Redneck Games

East Dublin, GA, USA
July 7, 2007

events include the cigarette flip, the mudpit belly flop, bobbing for pigs feet, the big hair contest, the hubcap hurl, the seed spitting contest, bug zapper spitball, dumpster diving, and everyone's favorite, the armpit serenade. "That's when you cup your hand under your armpit and make farting noises," Davis says. "But people down here have taken it a step further and can play tunes."

A fixture at this annual event is a fellow by the name of L-Bow, a local asphalt technician who doesn't have any teeth. In his soiled bib-overalls, smelly T-shirt, and ragged old shoes, L-Bow is the perfect mascot for the Summer Redneck Games, which means he's the official torch-bearer. Of this honor, he sheepishly admits, "I got the big kiss and swole all up with pride." With a propane torch adorned with the aluminum from a 6-pack of Budweiser, L-Bow parades the athletes into the arena (a field) and lights the Ceremonial BBQ Grill. "Let the gas begin!" he hollers.

The event has raised some controversy over the years. Some locals have come forward saying they think the term is derogatory. Even some of the "wine and cheese crowd" have come forward, believing the event is degrading. "You know what," L-Bow says, "Everybody has a little bit of redneck in them. A redneck is anyone who works hard for every penny they get. It's the one time a year hard-working country folk in these parts can be proud of who they are and have a little fun." But don't think L-Bow is getting sentimental. "I got my own little creed about rednecks," he says. "We work hard, we play hard, and we die broke." Gentlemen...put on your beer goggles and start your riding lawn mowers. Admission is $5 per carload, so pack 'em in.

Good old-fashioned Southern Rock

SHINEDOWN LYRICS

"Save Me"

I got a candle
And I've got a spoon
I live in a hallway with no doors
And no rooms

Under a windowsill
They all were found
A touch of concrete within the doorway
Without a sound

Someone save me if you will
And take away all these pills
And please just save me if you can
From my blasphemy in my wasteland

How did I get here
And what went wrong
Couldn't handle forgiveness
Now I'm far beyond gone

I can hardly remember
The look of my own eyes
How can I love this a life so dishonest
It made me compromise

Someone save me if you will
And take away all these pills
And please just save me if you can
From my blasphemy in my wasteland

Jump in the water
Jump in with me
Jump on the altar
Lay down with me

The hardest question to answer
Is why

Why

Someone save me if you will
And take away all these pills
And please just save me if you can
From my blasphemy in my wasteland

Someone save me
Someone save me
Somebody save me
Somebody save me
Please don't erase me

Ok I was tagged by Pete and it took me awhile but here are my answers :)

All about Me me (well some about me anyway)
1.What was the name of the teacher that was most influential in your life from grades K through 6? This is sad but I don't remember ANY of my teachers' names. We moved so often and I went to so many different schools during this time it all just blended together. But, I do think that my Spanish teacher in first grade had a huge impact. I learned to really love languages and she helped me speak out loud when I couldn't in my native language.

2.Did you argue with teachers? Haha no. You would have to be able to verbalize to do this. I was the quiet type. In fact I was mute until well into my 7th year of schooling.

3.What subject did you favour in high school? History! I love history. It was almost too good to be true that it was actually a school class. I was always thinking that it was too much fun to be included as school :)

4.Did you attend a university and if so, did you attain a degree? Yes and no. My haphazard approach to primary schooling carried over into my university studies. I moved around a lot and studied tons of different things but nothing enough to equal a degree.

5.Do you learn best through books, by watching, or hands-on? Hands-on definitely although I can do it through books or by watching it's just slightly harder.

6.Has education been an ongoing process for you? Haha everyday is an education. I am always learning and wanting to learn. I can't imagine NOT wanting to learn. So the answer to this is a resounding Yes!


7.What seven people are you tagging to do this?
I'll have to get back about this part ;)

Scarlette and Sophia

My beautiful and happy nieces :)

Bubba Ludwig

Illinois baby obtains gun permit
Bubba Ludwig may only be 10 months old, but he has already successfully obtained a gun licence in the US state of Illinois.
Bubba's father, Howard Ludwig, applied on his behalf after his grandfather gave him a shotgun as an heirloom.

Mr Ludwig said he had not expected to succeed, but he filled in the online form, paid $5 and the licence was his.

US gun laws are regularly the subject of fierce debate, renewed recently after April's Virginia Tech killings.

Gunman Cho Seung-hui was able to exploit a loophole in Virginia state law and obtain weapons despite having a history of mental illness. The loophole was later closed.

Technical problems

The licence includes a picture of a toothless Bubba and a squiggle that represents his best attempt at a signature.

It makes an adorable addition to his baby book

Howard Ludwig

In an article in the Chicago Sun-Times, Mr Ludwig, 30, said that he expected the application to be turned down.

Two rejections did in fact come, he said, but both related to technical problems - on one application he forgot to tick a box stating his son was a US citizen - rather than Bubba's youth.

His third attempt was rewarded with a state firearm owner's identification card (FOID), complete with details of Bubba's height, weight and date of birth.

'No age restrictions'

Illinois gun laws are said to be among the strictest in the US.

But Illinois State Police, who oversee the application process, said that they had followed the law in this case.

"Does a 10-month-old need a FOID card? No, but there are no restrictions under the act regarding age of applicants," the Associated Press news agency quoted Lt Scott Compton as saying.

Mr Ludwig said Bubba's gun would likely remain at his grandfather's house until he was 14.

"I'm not about to approve any unsupervised hunting or trap shooting for Bubba," he wrote in the Chicago daily.

"Still, I'm glad he was able to get his FOID card. It makes an adorable addition to his baby book."

7 week old Great Dane Puppies!

Face Transformer

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Los Hombres en sombreros

This was from Cinco De Mayo

Lightning Strike WAY too close for comfort!

The boys and I were about 40 feet from this tree when it was hit by lightning. Debris and pieces of leaves fell on us. It wasn't raining and there weren't any other lightning strikes nearby. It was very loud and very scary!

Emo Spidey is Hot

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